Closing one chapter, starting a new one

December 2013.
I am patiently, or rather, impatiently, waiting on my final judgement of divorce. Five years have passed and I though I wish I had began the process sooner, I know I am exactly where I should be.

Desiderata, "desired things." 

I could, look back on this year, these past years, with regret. But...I don't. Everything that has happened is a part of me and has helped shape me into who I am, good and bad, happy and sad, and everywhere in between. I don't think I would be who I am today without going through these past 5 years. Troubled relationship, marriage, having a baby, break up, separation, a state of limbo, single mom-ness. All the drama that ensued.

Finally, going live today: 

 "May you find beauty in the every day."

A little primitive, but still going to fly. In keeping with my upcoming theme for 2014, I'm moving forward...! As I near this end of my journey, closing a chapter, beginning a new one, I want to finish what I started, and spread some good karma seeds.

Top image from the desiderata of happiness.

Confession

Well... It's been about a year and a half since my first post. Life, among other things, has happened in that span of time. I haven't gone live with a crane, but I think it's time. Stay tuned.

Confession: I did burn many of the cranes. It was really therapeutic.   And, I have to say, since that summer day, my life has changed in many ways (for the better).   I'm sure the hardworking individuals, my friends and family that slaved away making bags and bags of cranes weeks before the wedding, will be none too pleased.  To those who had indulged me and my request, toiled long hours after work, enduring paper cuts: Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Looking back, it was amazing to see so many involved.  How many were willing (or not so willing, but still obliged) to donate their time and dexterity to a couple whose marriage was probably over before it began.

My divorce is finally in the works, things are moving, albeit slowly. Life is not in order, but the knots are slowly coming loose.  One step at a time, they say.

The Story

Several years ago, before my wedding day, friends and family helped to fold 1000 paper cranes for my wedding.  A few years later, I am on a journey of reflection and renewal, as my marriage comes to an end. I will give away each crane in a special way, as both a creative outlet and mental outlet. I also thought of starting a fire and just burning the whole lot, but we shall see. Thank you for visiting!